I don’t really know what to feel to be honest. Of course I wish the feelings were mutual, but they’re not cos he has a girlfriend. Which I only found out ten minutes ago. I just thought things were going really good between us. But again, my overactive imagination took over and planted all kinds of seeds into soil that can never grow them. What is wrong with me? Do I want too much, is that why I never get? And I wanted, still want, him so fucking bad, it’s ridiculous. All I can do is imagine what it would be like to kiss him, hold his hand, run my fingers through his hair, feel his breath tickle my ear as he whispers his stupid comments into it. I don’t know whether to cry or laugh. Cry cos it’s never going to happen, or laugh cos I actually thought it could. I think I’ll just go to sleep for now.